Some days I can handle the fragmentation of the SAHM life quite well. Other days, I am sure there is a low-end padded cell (sadly, I picture mattresses bungy-corded to cinderblock walls) complete with uniformed attendants and pill-wielding Nurse Ratchets to drug me in to oblivion every few hours. What is really scary is that every so often, I WISH I WERE THERE!
I start to write a post, or research SEO methods, or attempt to understand CSS, and within seconds my preschooler’s radar has been activated into ask-mommy-12-questions-per-minute mode. The thing is, she’s truly curious. And she has good questions about half the time. The other half the time, she’s just enjoying hearing herself converse and getting a direct response from another human. All age appropriate stuff. NOT, however, conducive to accomplishing much on my to-do list, and especially detrimental for working on growing this website.
I sooooo wish I could send her to 4K next year, which is an excellent mornings-only public school program that prepares kiddies for learning and social interaction on a school-sized scale. However, since Amy has an October birthdate, she won’t qualify for school quite so soon. School won’t be a reality for Amy until the fall of 2011.
I cannot afford to send her to any sort of preschool or daycare. Remember, we’re a one-income family.
And part of me wishes she could stay this small and this innocent and this sweet and communicative forever. I know that all too soon, she’ll have raging hormones and crazy-wild uneducated opinions and a reckless fashion sense that I’ll hate. I know that before I hardly realize it’s happened, she’ll develop all kinds of anti-mommy tactics to ignore, push away, and punish me for being The Enforcer in her life. She won’t have one iota of respect for all that have done and continue to do for her. Let alone how much I love her.
But please, PLEASE, can anyone tell me how to enjoy the babbling, the pretend play, the endless need for attention while simultaneously getting a few things DONE?
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